Sigh... Week4

Angus!! (paragraph 5)

Kevin, Guywhosnameidontremember, Angus, me, Michael

First off, I am so sorry for not blogging last week. I had a discussion with the speaker two weeks ago, which is apparently life changing, and all he does is ask a few simple questions. Now, I forever have known that when I'm hurting or get hurt by others I just make myself numb. I've pretty much numbed myself to extreme emotions. Once in a while I do go through my meltdowns (Emily, I'm sure you wont forget the time that I picked you up from skating... Unless you did...), but for the most part I distract myself enough to avoid them. What I didn't realize and was revealed to me was that in numbing my emotions, I was also numbing myself from any feelings (which is how I hear God) God would give me. 

After that lovely discussion I haven't stopped crying. Sort of. I would cry for a short period everyday. Awesome speaker though. There's so much processing to do with everything. So I'll start up for real this coming weekend. 

Some other emotional things happened last weekend which made it much more difficult. I realized (some for better, others for worse) everyday for a week last week. So because of trying to unnumb (deal with the spelling) myself, I don't understand half of what I'm feeling, and I can't put words to it yet which makes it very difficult for me to be able to write. Maybe I should've done a Q&A this week... 

Last week our speaker was awesome. Apparently this base has never had him before, but he was incredible. The last 2 days for class he had an individual sit in the middle and everyone else around that person. Now I'm going to use me as the individual. To begin everyone would say encouraging things to me, then there was a brief prayer followed with prophecies. It was really interesting to hear what people had to say, especially from Jan (the speaker of the week) considering he's never heard my story or anything. 

Last Sunday all the students and a couple staff were planning on going to Hillsong church in Sydney. In the end everyone chickened out on going except for Michael (awesome guy), Kevin (awesome guy) and me. It was so worth the two hour train ride! As soon as we walked in the door people came up to greet us. Kevin had been the night before, so one guy, Kenny, recognized him right away. After church we were all hanging around talking when I saw a guy with the best moustache ever! And asked if I could get a pic of him (that's the guy in the picture). Then a bunch of us went to the closest shop (grocery store) and got a bunch of food for a picnic, and that's where us three ate that day. It was so awesome and I can't wait to go again. So worth it!! 

Shout outs.

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