How Big Is Your God?? Week7

If you can't tell, this is a crab. He's rainbow.

I went into this last week with probably a bad...some good...mindset. 

One day two weeks ago someone came to me and said that this last week I really needed to pay attention. Then Monday morning during worship I heard, again, that this week was quite important, though I really didn't know why. Shortly after God told me relationships would be important this week (not what the speaker talked about). 

While I was hearing all these people who came back from Thailand and India outreaches knew their calling and a few people here hearing from God. I thought to myself that now, it was starting in week 7 of lectures that I really wasn't going to learn what my future would hold yet. Not here, but later in life. Yeah, turns out one of God's favourite things is to prove you wrong. 

This week Garth spoke about the Call of God. We had over 20 Keys to the call of God. Some big ones that I know I struggle with are:
#1 No Compromising, Even if it Costs You Everything - I tend to justify my actions to make it "okay". Which I totally the devil. And I see it, I mean, some of my conscience is still there, I just sometimes prefer to ignore it. 

#3 It's More about Your Availability Than Your Ability To Do Things - Like many things I never focused on this a lot, but the way we grown up in this twisted world we've been taught that you have to be capable of doing things (ei. going to school to become an engineer before you're qualified, going to university for business then going to work for some big company and being successful, etc) before we're allowed to go on. In school we have to get good enough grades before we can graduate, when some millionaires out there are genius and they were highschool drop outs. We're taught this with everything, you have to be smart before success. Sure, there are somethings that need to be taught like safety precautions before doing the other pieces. I however, learn by doing and am quite visual, so doesn't it make more sense for me to be out there learning rather than sitting in lectures taking in half of what I really could? When it comes to the call of God I think that more often than not we use the excuse of incapability to doing what He asks because we haven't "learned enough", even when it's on our hearts. We're scared to give our time to it. 

#6 Faithful in the Small Things - I know I often just want to jump into it. But before you can lift 500lbs, you have to tear your muscles enough to get there, and that is done by being consistent. A person can only begin with 10 push ups, then when done enough 20 can be accomplished. And before you know it 100 push ups in one set. For me I have to start by consistently getting up every morning, before breakfast and doing my own mini bibles study. I have to start with memorizing verses. I have to know what I believe and why. God will eventually push it to more, maybe opening an opportunity to share with someone who is on the edge of believing. 

#18 Listen and Obey and See God Move - I listen...I obey...but I obey later. I really need to practice that when God tells me to do it then. Acts 8:26-40. Beautiful example. Philip could have just continued to his original destination, dropped of his things, then gone back to where God said to go, but if he had done that he would've missed the opportunity with the Ethiopian. God knew that Ethiopian was in that spot at that minute and it was perfect. That guy never would've been baptized and changed his life direction if Philip hadn't obeyed in that second. I need to practice that. 

#27 Heart of Thankfulness/Gratefulness - It's too easy for think of what I need to get done or to get things done. Sometimes I just need to take a step back and thank God for what He has provided. 

#38 You've Gotta Fight For It - I always knew I needed to fight for getting things done. I mean, sometimes there aren't always those open doors. I need to kick them down. But I never thought about other people stopping me and that I need to fight through them, which might just mean ignoring them. Lots of people will call me crazy, and lots of people will tell me that it can't happen, but I just need to persevere and I know that if God is telling me to do it, then I sure as hell can. Like, when I decided to shave my head, I knew I was going to, and when I told people I was you could just see their reactions and you knew that they thought I was crazy. And another funny thing, So many people think the idea is crazy or we'll look like fools if we do it, but when we see other people do it we think "Wow, that's amazing." It's like that person becomes our new role model. We just need to practice it, it'll work itself into our comfort zones.

Now I'm going to have a moment of ranting, which will be attempted to keep it as short as possible. 

Back to Week5 near the end I was saying how I'm disgusted with people, how much money makes it to missionaries, etc. I'm downright pissed and still I am not getting over this. Check out this link Did You Know? which will hopefully give you a brief understanding of why I'm so angry with this. The first time watching it I found the music to be distracting, so a few times over might be good. It is ridiculous how some are avoiding this and some don't know. I don't think everyone needs to go out as missionaries, some people are to stay behind and give meaning to other people out in developed countries. God gave those a comfortable life. But I really do wonder how many of us decided against that idea. 

For this next one I will say I am a hypocrite and I do not do well at showing if I'm fired up for Jesus or not. I don't encourage others. I do nothing. I'm learning more that I really need to work on being passionate, with words because that's how people hear us. I really love Him. But this realization came when Garth was talking and shocked me how ridiculous my life is. We get all fired up over the new apple products being sent out every few months. It's always the Nemo seagulls. We camp out overnight to see that huge movie playing in 3D then next night, or show up before the sun is away and stand in ridiculously long lines that really shouldn't exist for Boxing Day Sales, so we can get the best for the cheapest. We get so excited all these materialistic things, but who out of your five closest friends is consistently announcing (to you, someone else, or publicly) "DUDE!! GUESS WHAT?!?!?! I SAW AN ANGEL!" or "Guess what? I was thinking about praying, since we do this on a daily basis and I started reading Daniel 9:4-20, which is Daniel's prayer. Then I recalled in Nehemiah 1:5-11, Nehemiah's prayer is actually incredibly similar. And, as many Christians have memorized, Matthew 6:9-13 the Lord's prayer is how Jesus said we should pray. Which is how Nehemiah and Daniel prayed. It begins with praise, followed by confession, remembering God's promises and repeating them back (not all, but it appears to be promises relevant to what they're confessing), and ends with asking God to grant the "wishes". So I've come to the conclusion that I want to start praying like that. At the same time I'll have to be careful not to just blabber about it, but actually think about what I'm praying. This is what has been revealed to me this week." I know I certainly didn't do that, but I want to start. Better now than never. 

And to complete this post I figured I'd give vague insight to the little bit of my calling that I heard this week. 

I have always been passionate about injustice. I want to fix it, but I am to blame. I have definitely made excuses about not knowing how to begin. I hate hearing about human trafficking or starving kids. I want to love them, but it is money. Missions has always attracted me, and going someplace far away, learning the language and the culture definitely is attractive. 

Someone prophesied over me in 2011, and two people in 2012. I listened to those today and some of those things were quite accurate, others hadn't happened yet. One of the things was that "I love to travel (true) and that I'd be traveling in the near future. It wasn't about the trip, but it was about what I was going to experience." Crazy things God does, huh? When I received that I had no idea at the time I'd be doing a DTS with YWAM in Australia and going to Malaysia for outreach. 

This week Garth asked us what we wanted to be as children. I've always been fortunate and God has granted my deepest desires (some of me is like crap!! Because I'm a nervous wreck now). I have always liked the thought of being a missionary or being involved with missions, I just never knew what it actually involved. I've also always wanted to adopt a kid after having a couple of my own. Garth said God reveals to us forgotten things and for some of us that is what our future holds. Well I remembered these things, but I wanted to remember something I had forgotten (which you'd think would be these things, but it wasn't). I prayed for a day or so and then recalled a book about Charles Mully. If anyone knows that guy then you might understand my thought before. Crap!! I don't remember everything, and will be reading it when I get back. The gist of it is he and his wife have a house and take in kids from bad situations. If a kid runs away Charles will search for him/her until he finds him/her and will bring them home. 

I don't know what this looks like. I don't know if I'll get married before that. I don't know where I'll be going. I don't know how many kids I'll have. I don't know how I'll provide. I don't know when in my life this is going to happen. So I've decided that I'll continue with my mini plan until God is all like "STOP!! DO THIS!!" or "NOW'S THE TIME!!" I know I still have a lot more prep work to do before I'm even emotionally ready for this. 

Shout outs :)